Sometimes this world breaks my heart in two. Not in a bad way though. More like a heartache at how frightening the world can be and how precious what we have actually is. Sometimes, when I am alone, I reflect on my son, my husband, family and life in general and it will make me so immensely happy I will want to cry. But other times, I get so immensely scared I want to cry. I think the reason is, is that when you have a child to care for, a husband to hold on to for the rest of your life and a family to love and maintain you have everything to lose and you can't help but have this flash in front of your eyes now and then.
It can be frightening. It's a reality check. And this may sound sad but ask any mother and bet she would say the same. We have the responsibility of a lifetime now and its an amazing challenge. I'm game but sometimes my heart is overwhelmed with love that I can hardly stand it. I guess thats a good thing. So when I feel like this, I rush home as fast as I can, and I grab Fritz, and I squeeze him tight. And if it's my husband I'm thinking about, I grab him, and squeeze him tight. Life is so super sweet that you gotta notice each smile, each giggle and every single kiss. Some times there can be minutes, hours or even days between them. Appreciate it when you can get it because there is nothing better on this earth. Im pretty sure thats a fact.
I have moments like these too and it does shake you to your soul( but mostly in a good way). Family, love, and peace are truly priceless in a world full of chaos. It's always good to sit still for a moment and look at the beautiful blessings we tend to take for granted.
Posted by: Dutchi | September 23, 2008 at 12:06 PM
I have moments like these too and it does shake you to your soul( but mostly in a good way). Family, love, and peace are truly priceless in a world full of chaos. It's always good to sit still for a moment and look at the beautiful blessings we tend to take for granted.
Posted by: Dutchi | September 23, 2008 at 12:07 PM
oh i feel that way for sure..try watching 21 grams....you may go ape shit
Posted by: randi | September 24, 2008 at 01:20 PM
Funny I was thinking about that Movie the other day. Ugh...the worst. Did you see things we lost in the fire?? Not as bad but that one scene/moment when The police come to the door...Soo fucking sad.
Posted by: Samantha | September 24, 2008 at 01:27 PM
I have not seen it yet, I saw it at the video store and read the back..was not in the mood for a depressing movie :P
Posted by: randi | September 24, 2008 at 05:27 PM